Do you ever
second-guess yourself on Monday?
Feel
insecure about Sunday?
Wonder if
you’re cut out for this?
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| A little grace in a cup. |
A little self-examination for the sake of improvement is a
good thing, but on Monday Morning, too much self-examination easily turns into
insecurity. I have to be careful about analyzing Sunday’s service before I’m physically
and emotionally recovered from the weekend. I start asking myself, Did I choose
the right topic? Did I select the wrong songs? Did the offertory fit the
service? Did I play well or sing out of tune? Maybe I should have practiced
more. Maybe I should have prayed more. Did I listen to God? Did people like the
music? Did they like the songs? Did they like me? So and so barely spoke to me,
did I make him or her mad? Am I in trouble? Did I do it all wrong? Why didn’t
anyone complement the music? Why didn’t they sing? Should I be doing this at all?
Insecurity isn’t all bad – it helps me realize that I don’t
have all the answers. I’m not perfect. And someone will probably always be
unhappy about something. And there is always someone who will do my work better
than I could. That humbles me. A lot. But just because someone else might be
better at what I do doesn’t mean I shouldn’t do it all. It means I need to rely
on Jesus all the more.
The problem we have on Mondays is that we sometimes let our
feelings of insecurity affect our families, our relationships, and our
ministries. To make sure that doesn’t happen, we need to look at our
insecurities, acknowledge them, but avoid making decisions based on them. I may
feel like quitting on Monday Morning, but usually by the time Tuesday rolls
around, I’ve recovered from the feelings of insecurity that made me want to
write that resignation letter. I need to make sure I’m not putting my feelings
of insecurity onto my spouse – just because they aren’t singing my praises all
Monday morning doesn’t mean they’re mad me or think I did a bad job the day
before. It probably just means it is Monday, and they don’t want to face the
world, either! I also need to be careful
about my relationships with people at church on Monday morning. If I’m feeling
insecure, I might be tempted to strive at pleasing people more than I work to
please God. Awareness doesn’t make insecurity evaporate; it helps us live out what
we believe even when we don’t feel like it.
It’s Monday. A day to give myself a little extra grace, and
extend it to those around me.
It’s Monday. A day to practice what I preach the rest of the
week: to act according to how I believe, rather than according to how I feel.
It’s Monday. A day to practice the discipline, to make a conscious
choice, of putting my security in God’s hands even when I am insecure.
It’s Monday, but Tuesday’s on its way.
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